Calm this storm District of Columbia Washington 20011

Hi I need some life I know its not good to be negative all the time yet i am at a point in life where i prefer not to be phony transgender wear plastic smiles or be an overzealous positive thinker Having said that my life hasnt been easy and ive been experiencing a lot of grief during the last two years I have little trust in people the system and think suicidal thoughts a lot I know that i need to socialize but it is hard for me as i many times feel extremely disconnected I dont seek a pity party rather i desire a straight up laid back individual i can chill with or maybe go to the beach or jog in a park with from time to time If u smoke thats okaybut no cigarettes tho simply prefer smell of weed or cigars Age or race unimportant Nicole